Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Tomorrow, tomorrow! I love ya, tomorrow!

That is my mantra lately...I am trying to focus on tomorrow being a better day than today. Why you ask? Why am I wishing my days away? Because life has become 'so daily' to quote Mary Engelbreit. Its kind of like living ground hog day. Here is an example of life: wake up, get dressed, get the girls dressed and fed, head to the gym, run an errand or two, come home, do some things around the house, feed the girls, put Sophia down for a nap, teach Ellie her preschool lesson, maybe teach a lesson or two of piano or voice, make dinner, rinse, repeat the next day. It doesn't sound so bad to you perhaps, but its just so PREDICTABLE. I just feel like I am stuck. I am slowly making friends here, but for the most part it seems people are as busy as me with their kids and lives and don't have much room for another face in their lives. Its hard for me because I usually don't have trouble connecting with people or making friends, but here it seems people keep you at an arm's length. I feel like I have tried to reach out, maybe not. Maybe I am the one who is aloof and not showing interest. I just feel so blah. Maybe it is just going to take more time. More tomorrows...
I have gotten back into sewing a little bit, and being creative definitely has helped my mood. I miss being outside, there is still so much snow on the ground and taking the girls to the park is out. They hate being inside all the time and I agree, it is for the birds! I am soooo looking forward to warmer weather. The girls are also excited to enjoy the park again and I look forward to the pool this summer, although I will be huge and pregnant. I also miss photography. I think I need to invest in another book of some kind to get me inspired. Let's see, I also am trying to get caught up on the scrapbooking which haunts my craft table, there is still alot to do to feel ready to start another album, aka the next baby book. Our Italy album is sorely in need of attention, but luckily Sophia's baby book is caught up to one year. I have lots of projects, maybe I just need to channel my loneliness and cold weather blues to productivity.

Tomorrow is also the day we will (hopefully) find out what the gender is of this new baby. Ellie still wants a girl and Sophia wants a blue baby, although I am not sure if that really means a boy. The jury is out on my end, I have felt differently this pregnancy, but Chris says I have said that now three times, so its probably a girl, which would be fun, the girl thing is great. I know Chris would love a boy, and it would be fun to have a little boy to keep us busy, but I will be excited with whatever he/she turns out to be. Names are alluding us once again, although I have two girl names I like and a middle name for a boy.

Tomorrow tomorrow. Its only a day away and another chance to be happy and live well.

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